Aventure Into Colic 2
A Dramatic Adventure Into Colic- (2)
By Kate Street:
Once Kai is happy my family is in a GOOD place. I thrive as the mother of three boys and watch my husband do the same as a father.
Once Kai is happy we both feel that the third child is the easiest, smoothest, and even most magical transition of all our babies.
Once Kai is happy we take pictures at every opportunity. My bigger boys so look forward to Kai waking up so they can “see his eyes” and take turns holding him.
Once Kai is happy my world feels steeped in magic.
When Kai is happy it is precious and beautiful.
Once Kai is crying my boys stay away.
Once Kai is crying we all pray for him to keep sleeping because when he wakes up he’s either screaming or we’re waiting in morbid anticipation of the screaming.
Once Kai is crying my husband and I take turns losing it and holding each other up. My boys take turns worrying.
Once Kai is crying there are definitely NO photo ops.
Once Kai is crying I feel like I’m neglecting my other children and our family is falling apart.
Once Kai is crying I mostly hole myself up in the bedroom with him, not wanting witnesses to my personal hell.
Once Kai is crying I often cry with him.
And yet sometimes….
Once Kai is crying I can support him gracefully as he works through it.
Once Kai is crying I can smother his face in kisses and tell him over and over again how loved he is.
Once Kai is crying I can look past the tears and see his Divinity.
Once Kai is crying I can cling to him and love him fiercely.
Once Kai is crying I can tell myself (and him) that it’s only temporary and he’ll feel better soon.
Once Kai is crying I can fully realize the strength and grace of MYSELF as a Mother.
Once Kai is crying I know there are higher reasons for this happening ~ that it’s something he (and we) have to go through and that we’ll all come out better, brighter and more beautiful than ever on the other side….
I love you, Kai…fiercely. Really fiercely